Wow. Hard to believe that my metabolic repair began46 days ago (6.5 weeks!). I would like to say it was easy and that I have a great sense of peace and wellness as a result of it, but I would be lying.
Nope, in reality, this repair has left me feeling pretty run down. I’m plump and doughy, and I dread waking up in the morning and getting dressed because I hate how everything looks. Even more, I hate hate going to the gym now because my gym clothes – being tight – really showcase my new spare tire and the saddlebags I’ve developed. I feel like I should get a shirt made that says “Yes, I’ve gained weight. Yes, it was on purpose”. In reality I’ve probably “only” gained about 7lbs, but since much of it is water (I assume), it’s really prominent, especially in my midsection.Even though before I was basically treading water at the gym (ie. not seeing any results), at least I was maintaining(ish) my weight. Now, it feels like I’m working out every day and getting fatter. Brutal.
I think the hardest part about this process is that there’s no way to know when you are “done.” It’s basically a “listen to your body” kind of thing, which is obviously very difficult to do when you haven’t been able to trust your body for so long. In case you were curious, or were thinking about doing a repair yourself, here’s a breakdown of how this has gone:
Week 1 & 2: Complete rest and eating same calories as before (1500-1600/day)
Week 3: Increased to 1750 calories and added light weight training to get my muscles back into the swing of things
Week 4: Increased to 2000 calories (meant to increase slower but had an indulgent weekend and decided there was no point going back)
Week 5 & 6: Increased to 2100-2500 (depending on the day) and started heavier weight training + added about 10-15 minutes cardio at about 60-70% of max heart rate.
According to my Fitbit, I burn 1800-1900 calories on a totally sedentary day and 2200 on a day when I just get up and go to work. On weight training days, the number jumps up to around 2400. If I do cardio, it can go as high as 2600. This is without any cardio sessions longer than about 15 minutes tacked onto the end of weight sessions. These numbers didn’t surprise me because I had a GoWearFit that I wore for most of last winter, but seeing the number and thinking “yeah, neat” is different than having to EAT that number of calories. Good god.
Now the question is: when can I stop this crap? Some people have told me I should keep going as long as I physically can, but in the interest of full disclosure, I am going to Florida on April 20 and at the risk of sounding dramatic, I can’t be this weight when I go. I am dying here, guys.
And I feel really alone.